Safety in Stillness |Rant with Reign ~v1
Today I learned that there is so much beauty and simplicity in stillness, in strength. I finished a painting this morning, early this morning around 6- 5:30. I don’t yet have a completed title for said painting, but it really means a lot to me. I captured this feeling in a journal entry this morning 5~21~2025 I said:
9:16 am“ i am ready for my new beginning. I am whole in newness. and balanced in bliss.the clearing has begun. i finished a painting this morning. a couple of days ago i started with a sky. i squeegeed and blended soft and wise shades of blues. two fluffy golden, white clouds casts shadows over mountains. on the right side of the sky the planet Venus overlooks the mountain man gently holding a baby. stretching to the left a newborn baby is being birthed from the green grassy newness. Lowing the defense of the mountain man to favor the nurturing of growth, strong in unconditional love.
Theres this beautiful scene in the movie “Sinners”, which I’m sure by now so many people have seen. But there's this beautiful scene before the shift, before the darkness, where the brothers smoke and stack share smoke. And it's very simple.
It's very subtle, but there's so much reflection in it. There is a love, a peace, a softness, in that simple sharing a fire. And the fact that, you know, they're sharing a smoke is very symbolic in general, but I found a release in that symbol of fire, the burning of the old, the newness.
And making this painting really helped me understand the balance and the need for that in all aspects of femininity, masculinity, encourage and how we conform and how we don't conform, how we reshape our narratives and open up cages and boxes for ourselves and others. And I think sharing a smoke or... painting and writing about painting is a simple fire. that burns a little brighter in all of us. It's something that we can do, we can share, we can reflect on, that engages something brighter in us.
I'm incredibly excited about the newness that is being born in me, and I paint unconsciously always. I never know what it is until it's done unless I see something that I want to highlight. In that case, I spend moments mateiculously bringing out that piece until it's positioned and in place exactly how I see it or envision it.
And if it's not, then I work with what's there and I make it the best I can. I think that shifting, that simple shifting is what— is what we're looking for in these times of turbulence. of uncertainty. How must we shift our skills, our newness, our deliverance to impact the greater whole?
Positively impact the greater whole? How must we deliver ourselves to wholeness, so wholeness can be birthed in us and through us, for us, by us. I think I crave simplicity and stagnancy, stillness, though, not stagnancy.
I crave stillness. because the bustle and the rustle and the hustle is something that they whipped in us. They fed to us. I am worthy of more than what I can give.
And I deserve love in more ways than I've gotten. -And the knowledge that we can shift our realities by simply acknowledging that is so freeing. The stilless is in the moment. The stilless isn't the time I take to paint over days, put it down, write on it, sleep on it, scream, cry, ache, and breathe and do it all again.
And then to think on it and paint paint on it and dream about this composition, dream about this painting being finished. And the fact that after that, after that beautiful time of nurturing this art piece, I can sit and nurture my mind and form complete sentences about this art piece to understand what I'm seeing. That moment of stillness is all that I need to persevere into the moment that is going to get us to where we're trying to go.
Because this moment doesn't just come and go, which it does. When it lasts in little iterations, it changes through time. It changes in that limal space of in between.
It's going to shift and be a little stickier and be a little messier and be a little more precise at some point. It's going to feel more abundant. It's going to feel more joyous.
It's going to feel more constricting. It's going to feel like a tower being crushed crushed at your feet. It's going to feel difficult and trying at times.
But the fact that we feel it is the reason for being. And I' I've had so much peace in that, especially after these weeks. I've understood how connected to the earth I really am, really, truly am.
I have barometric headaches that cause these sharp iceberg headaches, like, to just, like, stab me at random times in the day. And it's frustrating not knowing if you're going to be able to stand or sit or crawl or if you're going to be able to feel your eye normally without a sharp stabbing pain in it, every couple of minutes. It's a difficult feeling.
It's a difficult situation.. And over these last few days with the climate, being so unpredictable with dust storms and rain and wind, I have taken time and the midst of crying to paint and I felt energy transmute through that, and it feels so, so, so good. It feels so good.
Not only now do I have a beautiful piece that I love to talk about, obviously, but now, I am incrediblyibly.. rooted in the truth of what's happening around me and in the world. And now, at this point in my existence, I'm experiencing this deep connection to how this world works. I believe in so much synchronicities, and I believe the synchronicities can catch you even more. in the stillness and in the silence.
And because of that, I sit so statuesquically (lol) in my room looking at all of my creations, thankful that I was able to do so And that brings me more inspiration and more joy and more conversations like these, so I'm so grateful. Thank you. I'm Sanai Reign, artist, poet, creative, and I am inspired by the world and mushrooms connection systems connecting to people.
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