Shedding Understanding~Mini Musings
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Sometimes I don't wanna be understood. I don't think enough people talk about this, this level of awareness of secrecy. Stillness knowing that everyone's going to understand everybody about you and the release and the acceptance to know that that's okay. It's not a deal breaker. It's not going to make you unlovable, untrustable. And there's more to life than every single detail, because I have crazy amazing, vivid dreams of new planets, and when I'm creating in this flow state, I feel so much closer to God. And people get so uncomfortable when they know these details about this wholeness of me, this deep part of myself that other people don't get to witness because it's hidden in between the moments of time in the early morning, the late night, in between an episode of sharp pain, there's a prayer, there's a whisper, there's an answer and there's a call. And regardless of, you know, knowing it or feeling it or understanding it, this is my truth and this is my reality. I feel closer to my ancestors and closer to God when I'm creating when I'm investigating the wholeness of me when I'm feeding into the knowledge that I can create freely openly and honestly, and I can be joyous in this feeling. This openness allows me to be present and it allows me to connect deeper to my ancestors and I think that's a beautiful practice and not everyone gets to understand it and that's okay You might understand it in your own way or not at all. And that's okay. Be comfortable, being un~relatable or just relatable enough to a handful of people who will understand be okay with it. I'm talking to myself be okay with it. See yourself and everyone else. see yourself in their confusion see yourself in their fear see yourself in their heartache and heartbreak. See yourself in their love and their joy and their newness. Feel yourself in the change of the wind. In the pick up of a heartbeat when you figure out you're falling in love feel yourself in that moment and then you might understand it and then you might get it and maybe you won't and that's the beauty of it. We all have our own experiences, and together, we make a whole.
